Someone will come to comfort you,
Someone who sees, no, who knows, Your pain, someone who will show you A boulevard, where the sunlight glows, A wild spot in Canada, where the rapids Roar, uninhibited, And you will heal, and you will feel Your life under each eyelid. That is you and me. That is Everyone, sick with love, Until our doctor comes, to Release—taking off each glove-- Our yearnings, to give life to endless Planets, each with its own bears, Its own honey badgers, its towns, Its trees’ globes of glowing pears.
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(After all, how far is heaven
From here? Inside my skull, it seems A jumble. Angels, true, and fences, I myself have smashed my dreams,) And there is the soul, straining to Emerge, and the stuffed river In the soul, it wants to flow, Flow, and it can barely shiver. No one knows. Here come the medicine Men, I mean they’re really kind, Instead of showing her her vistas, Water surging through a blind Alley, nostrums, formulas, Donkeys bearing panniers that carry Stale, flat bread, and there She is, bereft and solitary. My spirit sank. (It ignored
My spirit rising, or it was The other side, or it sat In Schrodinger’s box, what does Your cat do?) My spirit sank. (Wouldn’t Frank Zappa be surprised? Because) (perhaps) all the tunes Would somehow be anesthetized, And swoopingly deodorized. What if you were given, well, say, A hybrid motor and headlights that Could pierce the black in Mandalay? Believe me, you are so good-looking That that chopped-up purple hair And half-lying on the sofa And the casual way you swear Your limbs will leap up from the couch, You’ll say, “Show me the tropical sun! Take me to the waterfall Of Lembeh Island!” I’ll say, “Son, When you rise, I rise. Together, let us Search for light in the gecko’s Golden, slitted eyes. Let us Go to Spain, to those El Grecos Gloomy on the walls and open The skylight to see a Jan Miro Sky, and then up north to see The blinding light upon the snow.” Every curse will turn into
A blessing. (Maybe that’s why the deadly Tropical fish are so alluring, So psychedelic, such a medley Of scintillation.) Everything bad Will turn to good (I’d like the eyes To see that now. Wouldn’t we all? From Jupiter, how distant sunrise Must appear.) Everything streams From somewhere, the spongy texture of Galaxies, the sweeping little Electrons in the foxglove, It all starts out as good. It all Carries traces of advice. The plans from brilliant nudibranchs Up to Isaac’s sacrifice. It is all a metaphor.
Yes there is time and there Are numbers here and there (And what are they in you? Where (Is your time and where are your numbers, if Your fingers are numb?) In heaven, time Is (a lively creature or A dye that soaks the curtains. I’m Sure that I don’t know.) and numbers Are (silver buttons, perhaps), and what About you? Are your thoughts here Here or there? Cold or hot? That which is hidden in the cosmic brain
Comes out in crooked roads, where trucks Carry staples to foreign communities, Ergot in the wheat, an influx Of tainted milk—they once found a kid In its mother’s milk—and the exhaust chokes The town and the people stumble into Plate-glass windows—what a hoax, That the trinkets are plated in silver dross As fresh from the finest silversmith. It’s because the dispatcher fell asleep Or worse, his hand slipped, and with That, the whole array of lights On the grid changed, and there the trucks go To Chile or to tribes. Look, They eat the food, their eyes glow. But you, even if your mind Is filled with images of collapsed Mountains, volcanic rubble, charred Trunks, where life and sound have lapsed, Recall, at any rate, Miss Mary Mack, who had silver buttons all down Her back, no doubt she strung pearls Into a necklace and put on a crown. Because I gave her a piece of my heart She had my heart and I had a hole In my heart. But the doctor said fine, I will fix it Better than ever with a piece of a scroll. There’s another way to look
At it. The air does not envelop Mt. Everest. Mt. Everest Includes the air. Its paths develop, The paths of sky and earth. And The stories and the visions, they’re For far below, for every man With a paperback on the thoroughfare. The dreams receive from the neurons, its The neurons whose lights flash across Nodes, and then the wind whips The snow up to scrape and emboss, Up from the lower flanks of the mountain, Where the peach and cerise laundry flaps. Wind and mountain, mountain and wind, Never-ceasing turmoil, thunderclaps, Echoes and blessings, churning earth And raging mudslides, all of them speak, These are the elemental giants Drinking from the icy creek. Stories and rules, blood and bones,
Dreams of images unending And relays of neurons, these pairs Blending together, ascending and descending, Sometimes one is the mother and the other Is the son, and sometimes the other way Around. (Oh how my dreams emerge In the night from the roar of the ocean spray.) The source of the tremendous river Is the source of the banks, the oxbow lakes, The waters give the land new rules, The forest along the bank slakes Its deepest need from the deepest Waters, from the first bubble From which the river courses, until All the land, from wheat to rubble, Align themselves, under the sun And under the stars, until the land Is so rich that the dreamer on Its soil sees visions from Samarkand To heaven. And sometimes the land itself, Rises, the hills and their sediments, So that they themselves are the river, The dreams themselves and their wonderments. (”I too” he declared “have pain. I too Feel a twisted muscle, a creeping Dissolution in my skull, My honor wrecked, and I am sleeping (”As my money is depleted, I look and see you in the other Train, we’re running parallel Your train is clean you do not smother (”In cigarette smoke. But as for me, My vision of the moon is blotted Out, my own image in The mirror flinches and is clotted.”) (And since, since in a tenement The faucet is rusted, the water will not Run. Maybe you can know What that’s about, it seems such rot.) (If I could borrow something from you, Your eyeglasses, or your angle Of the view, from here to A boat where Arctic ice floes tangle (In the water and the chill Makes my bones wake up. The black Rough mountains are softened with snow And shall we paddle in the kayak?) All of the clams were controlled by the rhythm
Of the sea. And all of the seas Were rolled about by the moon. Of these we’re all facsimiles. Imagine a raft of seals that is kind And a cove in Greenland streaming light, And all of nature is stuffed into Your veins, and everything is right, And even the suavity of your spine Is attuned to a book whose mint taste Glistens on your tongue. It is A scarlet sash around your waist, It is a turban. It is a ship That sails along a forest shore, A mountain that rises above all hills, And a fortress of the emperor. |
Yaacov David Shulman
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