I Ask Myself

​      I ask myself:
      Am I allowed to silence the joy of my soul, the full downpour of the supernal yearning, the slaking of the thirst of the gaze filled with holy radiance, for the sake of pressing requests of minor matters, of actions in which I do not feel the supernal goal of my ideals, for the sake of the pressures of intellectual learning—which, whatever the causes that have brought me to this, do not fill and slake my spirit?
      What will I do? How will I prepare my way?
      How will I perform my inner obligation for myself, for my spirit inside me, for my internal being?
      For me, this is the question of questions,
      Oh, how much I need a solution!
      Even all who draw up waters in buckets cannot explain this secret to me!
      Only from the might of soulful strength, which is fitting to break forth from within my inner being in the core of my core, only from this cloaked power will come in its revelation the clear solution to this soulful world-question.
            Chadarav, p. 37